SEVENTEEN

MALE

PANSEXUAL

STUDENT/STREAMER/CLOTHING MODEL

Lotus has short hair, he keeps it glossy and well-maintained. It has undertones of a dark violet, and he will sometimes add highlight in order to draw out this color more. His hair is silky to the touch, and there are also rare occasions where he will decorate it with hair clips. This is not as often as he will paint his nails or apply eyeliner however.

Lotus's blue eyes are dark and reflective, at times compared to a mirror. They are expressive and though he can sometimes conceal his feelings....when they show they REALLY show. They darken with intense emotion to a hue some would almost black, and his mother had often described them as eyes that would pull someone in. He at times accentuates this with eyeliner, usually black or red in coloration. It's not a drastic thing but it pops and compliments his eyes and beautiful facial features.

Lotus has a smaller frame, lean but that's pretty deceptive with the amount of strength he has. Many people underestimate him due to his shorter than average stature and pretty face, but that's one of the worst mistakes they could make. He stands at 5'6, just barely managing to avoid 5'5. He's known for his soft skin to those he's allowed to touch him, and a paler skin tone. He keeps himself fit, and while he doesn't care for sports it doesn't stop him from being a force to be reckoned with.

Lotus only wears expensive or designer clothing, often getting free things from his aunt's brand. He has a thing for painted nails and silver rings and chains, though he prefers darker colors and wouldn't be caught dead in something cheap or bright. He looks like a rich kid, and well - he is. But sometimes he also looks like a delinquent....which is debatable depending on who you ask. He also isn't afraid to show off his body either, since he knows it's appealing.

Scaramouche (Wanderer) from Genshin Impact

Lotus is capable of putting on the act of who you want to see. He can adapt and improvise easily, string together a soft face and pretty lies into the perfect mask. Fake warmth will coat his words and he will be overly friendly and perhaps even soft, seeking to wriggle under your defenses and endear himself to you. He will do whatever he can to get close to the objects of his current attention - all in order to get whatever it is that he wants. However, these things he masks as aren't inherently false. He was all of those things, they are just broken pieces.

The darker persona of Lotus can be described as aloof at best, and plain mean at worst. Actively sarcastic and scathing, he is inherently a budding manipulator who can and will pull your strings and bring his claws out to sink into whatever would hurt you most. His emotions are as far from stable as you could get - constantly flipping a hellish line of going from hot to cold. Extremely possessive and jealous to boot, but he genuinely thrives off of attention and affection. He can blow you and your feelings off, weave together insults or degrading comments as easy as breathing, and has quite a lot of attitude.

Should someone care to reach it though, some traces of who he was remain. Lost as they are - it could be possible to turn his life around and away from the monstrous thing he's becoming. He could be good, he could be genuine, he could be soft. But will it happen? How will his life at Panacea change his course - or will he continue to dance along the cliff's edge until he inevitably falls off?

🐾 Lotus has an addiction to bubble tea (specifically brown sugar or taro), as well as coffee. He also prefers coffee jelly as well. He doesn't need it to function, but it is something he has a high preference for.

🐾 Lotus has a decent social media presence. Aside from his streaming, he cultivates a following due to wearing his aunt's expensive brand of clothing, and also promotes various products he likes.

🐾 Lotus is fond of and adept at various technologies. He can code well, edit images and videos, repair some things, as well as hack some. This isn't something he really advertises, but he has jailbroken various phones and other devices, and even modified some.

🐾 Lotus is somewhere between a socialite and a loner. Though he will often present the face of someone wants to see....other times he doesn't bother. He doesn't always seek to approach others either, and will often be noticeably alone and quite content with it.

🐾 Lotus is an avid gamer, though you could probably guess that by the fact he streams. These are usually horror games, or competitive type games such as fps or mmos.

🐾 Lotus is also a fan of music, and will often listen to it at any available opportunity.

🐾 Lotus has a habit of painting his nails either black or violet. He dislikes brighter colors and also hates how his hands look when they're not painted.

🐾 Lotus has a small black cat named Midnight. She is the only thing on the planet that will always see his soft side no matter what mood he is in. Lotus has an unmistakable soft spot for cats. In return, they seem to adore him. His own cat, Midnight, loves him to bits.

🐾 Lotus is a part time game-streamer, and will often do so from his dorm room without caring what anyone else would think about it. This includes any room-mate situation, and if they're too noisy he'll attempt to lock them out on days he plans to stream until he's done.

🐾 Lotus has commitment issues and will trash any relationship once he's grown bored of the person. He doesn't believe actual love exists, just that people use each other for various things and would rather hurt someone else before he gets hurt. Most romantic relationships to him are transactional or are based solely on one's attraction to another's appearance, status, or some other coveted thing.

🐾 Lotus is known to be one to break rules and not care about the consequences. Sneaking alcohol, having cigarettes, or staying out late and sneaking out are the biggest offenders.

🐾 Though he tries to keep his rage under wraps in order to cultivate a perfect reputation, Lotus has a mean streak that knows little boundaries. While he prefers mental and emotional games, he can get physical if angered enough. He's far better at cutting people down to size and exploiting anxieties and other weaknesses.

Computer Sciences

Self-Defense (Aikido)

Gaming Club

A pretty famous streamer.

From the moment he was born, the defining aspect was how pretty he was. Considering he is three-fourths japanese, the house-hold he lived in was very Asian. His parents were strict and uncompromising, pushing him to perform above his peers. Learn faster, develop pleasing language skills faster, and maintain a social quo as well as grades when he entered into school. His mother loomed over every aspect of his life, directing every course of action. His father was more in the shadows, agreeing to everything she said. She refused to let his pretty face make him confident, often scolding him that even though he put his parents to shame with how pretty he was, that it would be a waste if he didn't follow their every command. She was jealous and though she tried to use him to her advantage, did a poor job at hiding that jealousy. Every compliment he would receive, is one that she would take instead, after all - he wouldn't exist without her.

For a while, as he aged he did everything his parents asked and expected. Despite pushing him over and over again to achieve greater heights, somehow performing as expected was also the wrong thing to do. His parents would parade him everywhere proudly, intent on gaining compliments from their both intelligent and pretty child. It worked. But jealousy is a fickle thing, and as he entered into his teenage years and showed signs of being better than his mother had performed at that age, her attitude became something of a minefield. How dare he be better than her?! Any time he didn't listen or spoke of his own desires - he would be quickly punished. Sometimes he'd be locked in his room and have dinner with-held, other times yet she'd hurl threats and insults and scream until the face many outsiders saw as confident had tears rolling down them. Sometimes she'd handle him roughly, a bruising grip, yanking him around too hard, slaps that stung his skin anywhere that was easier to cover up than his face. Despite hardly arguing and only wanting to live his own life, he was ungrateful. His grades and that beloathed face were making him too arrogant.



Eventually in order to make further use of him, she started to discreetly arrange dates she'd force him to go on. Due to his good grades and the aesthetic appeal, she found a bigger market for it than she would think. People would do anything to show him off as a fake boyfriend or even use it to get back at him and dig under his skin. If they reported disobedience after all...his mother made sure that he'd suffer. She made money off of it, and he was put in his place. What wasn't a Mother to be proud of? Most kids his age were draining their parent's finances. At least he could pay for himself. Of course he was often "borrowed" by the children of those his mother knew, from family friends to trying to bribe her own co-workers and bosses, to anyone wealthy enough she considered worth it. One of these was a young woman named "Miki", one of his academic rivals in the competitive school he was in, and incidentally, the daughter of one of his mother's bigger bosses. Miki was horrible to him, and there was a lot of bullying and demeaning language, though he'd also be pushed around and dragged around with her gaggle of cronies.

Hatred simmered in his gut the longer this went on, hatred of his family, hatred of the other teenagers around him, and his self-image fell through the floor and into the void. He wasn't worth anything at all. The only thing desirable about him was the accursed beauty of his face. He saw young couples in both media and the outside world alike and he scoffed. What were they getting out of it? Who was the manipulator? Love doesn't exist, it's just a honeyed word people and media layered over attraction and manipulation. His sense of self continued to slowly degrade as the days drug on, and since affection was the only way he ever got any sort of positivity...attention became what he sought after most. The crave of affection, of adoration the illusion of love...if this was all he he could get, then he'd start to chase after it like a starved dog dug in the trash for garbage. His life changed one day, where everything snapped and he fundamentally changed.

Kit

I have been very fluctuating between rl struggles affecting muse, so it's not consistent.
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